Best of 2013

Since it's New Years Eve, I'm kind of obligated to reflect on what has happened over 2013. This is going to be long post, just a warning. Haha!

What happened in 2013:

I got my O level results

I did all right– I was happy with my results which is a surprise because most of the time I would be a little disappointed. I thought I would did badly because I felt I didn't study as much as I hoped to (After the POA exams, I went to watch The Perks of Being A Wallflower with my friends). But it was a pleasant surprise that I did not get any Cs which I thought I would.

Posting results: Got into Media and Communication in Singapore Polytechnic

I felt really disappointed. Totally gutted. I had half the mind to appeal to a Junior College because I felt that the course I got into didn't present any prospect for my future. But when I was about to send in my application for appeal for a JC, I backed out because of my gut was telling me 'No' so badly that I felt a little sick when I was at the JC.

Went into poly and into class DMC 05

Freshman orientation was terrible. It was terrible. I felt like I stick out like a sore thumb and I was missing my secondary school friends– especially my close friends. During the first few weeks in poly was rather miserable, I could hardly enjoy myself and going to school was a drag. At times, I felt like giving up and not go to school because I felt awkward and uncomfortable and I do not want to put up with it anymore. Like everyone knows everyone and I'm just there, not fitting in. My social anxiety was at its peak during those months.

During the first week of school, I still remember really clearly that my lecturer told us to come up to the front and share a bit about themselves, I went up there and I froze up. I didn't know what to do. I felt like an idiot. And come Friday during that week, I cried in front of the class because I had a panic attack, not cool. I almost had another panic attack when I had to perform in front the entire cohort with my class. I know I left early because I don't want to be around my classmates anymore and feel even more awkward. I was also convinced that I'm just going to keep to myself because I thought it was better that way, so I don't have to trouble anyone.

Back at that time, I was certain I would not have any friends in poly. As time passed, I feel more comfortable with my classmates and slowly, I sort of have friends. My social anxiety wasn't that bad as we headed later on during the year. I know it's still there, I named it as 'the incessant voice' and it has made its appearance now and again. It's like, some days it's just background noise that I can ignore quite easily but other days, it's so loud like I'm in a room that is covered in boom speakers and I feel so helpless because I'm drowning in its voice and I can't do anything about it.

But back to the topic, 05 is a pretty awesome class compared to the others– yes I may be biased but it's true. Haha!

I think those were my milestones this year unless you also count turning 18 an milestone. I'm of legal age yet I act like I'm 5 or something. Haha!

On to more fun things. My favorite stuff of 2013.

Top 5 favorite music artists/bands (in no particular order):